If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that I’m officially over 2016. So many people dying both famous people and people I’ve cared about in real life; it’s emotionally overwhelming. I’ve decided to stop going to funerals. I just don’t want to experience them right now. I’ve been to more funerals since July 2015 than I have been from 2010 to early 2015. I’ve never lost so many people that I’ve loved in such a short amount of time. And when I turn to my two favorite escapes: movies/tv and music and I see a lot of death there too. Death from some of my lifelong favorites. I am bombarded with mortality, and I’ve become fearful of who will be next.
This sadness isn’t all bad; there is a silver lining of sorts. I’ve been doing a better job spending time with my family and friends. I’m not flaking so much, and I’m a HUGE flake. Ultimately, I don’t want to lose another person who I’d been promising to spend time with but hadn’t. One of my friend’s last text to me was- Seriously K. Renae, we have got to get together soon.
Dealing with death is hard. Dealing with death and regret is excruciating.
After all the death talk, I’d apologize for bumming you out. I’d change subjects and tell you that I haven’t read a book since the summer 2015. I’ve read tons of articles and listened to several audiobooks, but I haven’t read an actual book in almost a year. I honestly think this is the longest I’ve gone without reading a book since I’ve learned how to read. Such a disappointing milestone! I have a stack of books to read both on my nightstand and on my tablet. I have some catching up to do.
Finally, I’d tell you that I’m happy to see more bloggers chatting over weekend coffee. I haven’t had a coffee chat in a while because of life stuff, but it’s pretty cool to see more people sharing over coffee and tea. Part Time Monster‘s little space on the interwebs seems to have grown over the last few months. I’m excited to read and share with new people.
Maybe next time we can share over mimosas. What do you think?
If we were having coffee, what would you tell me? Have you accomplished some disappointing milestones? What are you reading right now?
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